So completely random thought of the day: Sometimes I feel like I am in an internet dating relationship with God. We got past the awkward getting-to-know you stage, and now everyday I long to meet him face-to-face. I want him to hold me and tell me how much he loves me. We have contact everyday and sometimes he sends me flowers, but I have to settle for emails and instant messages, not close contact.

I'm on day four of The Purpose Driven Life, which is "Made for Eternity". God made us to live forever, so our time on earth is like the tip of the iceberg compared to eternity with him. Remembering this gives me new perspective and changes how I do  just about everything.

I can't wait to see what heaven is like and finally meet my "internet boyfriend" face-to-face!

I just got back from one of the most amazing worship services I have been to in a long time. There's a church on my campus called His House and they have services for college students on Thursday nights. I work on Thursdays so I haven't been able to go lately and I was not even going to go tonight, but hey, God had his plans for my night.

The sermon talked about trusting God. I know, you've heard it all, you hear it all the time, but I very rarely actually get it. But tonight I realized a few things. One, when I try to trust God and feel like I can't, it's because I am still looking at things from a worldly perspective and trying to fit God into my life. I should be trying to fit my life into God. Trusting God is so much easier when you think about how stinking amazing our God is. We sang the song You Are God Alone (the recording I have is from Billy and Cindy Foote). When we got the chorus, I was tearing up and smiling what was probably a ridiculous smile at the same time, and trust me, I am not one of those emotional types.

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That’s what You are

God is huge. He was there before there was time, and he rules over everything. He has the power to do whatever the heck he wants. He loves me and won't ever let go, in spite of everything I have done and the fact that I blow him off quite a lot. He has a plan for me that is unquestionably the best plan for my life, and he will never change. He will always be loving, just, omnipotent, omnipresent, the alpha and the omega, forever. He has moved mountains, healed people, changed the outcomes of battles, turned water into blood, made bread fall out of the sky, changed people's hearts, and best of all, conquered sin and death forevermore.

Who am I not to trust in that?

When I focus how ridiculously amazing the God is that I serve, it is so much easier to trust him. Instead of "here's my problem God, fix it please," I need to say "God, you have control over everything in this world. Your will be done."

God will always be there, he never lets go. Good times and bad times, no matter what is going on in my life, he will always be there beside me, loving me and giving me more chances to trust in him. Though I've done nothing to deserve that love, I rejoice that it is mine.

God is on his throne, where he always has been and always will be. I'll rely on that kind of power any day. :)

~Selah